This chaotic, magical, busy, beautiful year.
It’s difficult for me to find the words to describe how I feel as I type this. One year ago today I was in my cubicle, near tears with a deep knowing that there was more for me. More ways I would evolve. More ways I would serve others. More ways I would bring joy to the lives around me. Little did I know then, that I’d leave that cubicle job and start my own business. Those two, though pretty damn amazing, are nothing compared to the growth, strengthened faith and trust that I have gained in myself over these past 12 months.
This has been a season that I am so proud of. One I cannot wait to look back on and laugh at my guts for taking on 27 weddings. I can’t help but feel like this year is only the beginning of my story. The beginning of a journey that I have enjoyed being so present for, and one that I have manifested for myself. A journey that when self doubt creeps in, I recognize it as just pushing me to be the best version of myself, and to grow. Grow. I want to tattoo that on my forehead as a daily reminder that growth is certain, that growth is good, that growth is necessary and welcome in my life.
I have fallen more in love with what I do with each closing of my shutter, each happy tear I’ve cried during the vows, and with each couples hugs at the end of the night. My year of pursuing my passion with reckless abandon turned from hero story to love story, when I realized how much I absolutely love pouring my heart into each couple. How much they open their arms to me. How spending a day with them creates a lifelong bond, and how together, we create heirlooms for them to treasure until they’re old and grey.
Renewed. That’s how I feel. I’ve never felt more like myself than I do today. I’m comfortable in my skin, have discovered what really loving myself means, and have learned to not only listen to my intuition, but have the faith to follow it. Hands down, this has been my favorite, best, and happiest year yet.
Pursuing your passions can be overwhelming, self doubt inducing, terrifying and lonely. More than that though, it can be magical, beautiful, filled with excitement and more rewarding than anyone has ever told you. This year has been nothing short of a miracle, and I’m so honored to be able to tell love stories, do what I love each and every day, and share with you along the way!